Isaiah
He was my first official boyfriend. I'm not sure how old I was or what grade I was in, but I'm sure I was in middle school... let's say around 7th or 8th grade. That's not him in the picture by the way lol I chose that picture because he loved music, he was a black kid (well black and Chinese or something like that), and I thought this picture kind of resembled him in a way. It just gives you an idea of what he looked like. I always thought it was weird that he had the same name as my brother... kind of made it hard to say I love you since I never tell my brother that... Ewe lol Not to mention, as embarrassing as this is to admit, he was my online boyfriend. Yeah, I know, pathetic. Go ahead, and laugh. But I actually did like him... until I caught him flirting with some other girl online. So we broke it off. It was a mutual thing. No hard feelings. I didn't cry over him. We never actually loved each other. Besides, I believe we were too young to actually love. And we never saw each other. I was better off alone.
Dustin
Our next guy, is Dustin. Dustin was picture perfect. No, that's not him either. I chose it because he was or is a skateboarder (I don't keep in touch) and the guy had white skin, and Dustin was Italian. He was my skater phase boyfriend. Black, long, shaggy hair, piercings, tall, skinny, perfect smile, he was every girl who wants a skater boyfriends fantasy. He was really kind, but he was just too flirty and friendly with other girls. He was also moving to California at the time, and since I knew him so well, I knew he'd most likely cheat, so we broke it off. He was my first kiss and first real physical boyfriend. He always knew how to make me laugh and cheer me up. Well, that relationship would have lasted a bit longer if he'd stayed and if he'd kept his hands to himself.
Freddy
This was probably one of the biggest mistakes of my life. This guy never actually cared about me, or even loved me. He was infatuated with me, and lusted after me, and I see that now because I've grown up. I dated him in high school for a few months or so. And again, no, that's not him. I chose that picture because he smoked a hell of a lot of weed. He was almost too stupid to understand anything. And I just couldn't deal with it. He was too handsy, and a toker. Had to cut him loose. Not to mention, he dated my friend while he was dating me then acted like he didn't know what was going on. Then he broke up with my friend when I found out so he could just be with me, but I didn't want him anymore. I felt so betrayed. His kisses were also really sloppy and wet all the time. Ugh, it was the worst. He was honestly the worst kisser. But I've only kissed a total of 3 guys. Dustin, Freddy, and my present boyfriend... who we're bringing up right now!
Martin
This, I'm hoping, will be my last choice EVER. Even though we argue... A LOT, I still love this kid. He makes me laugh, and I think that's a very important thing. Not a lot of people can make me laugh, and if you can, then that must mean you're actually funny. Not only that, but even though we argue and I get into my feelings and say he doesn't love me, I know that he does. I love him so much, and he is actually, surprisingly a great kisser. Wouldn't trade him for the world <3 And yes, that's him... and me :D
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